Man

So I am watching bridezillas and these bitches are CRAZY!  You know what's sad these people signed up knowing full and well they are going to be on tv and the entire world is going to see them as a demon spawn in a wedding dress.  Its nuts these guys just deal with it like lil pansies...  man up put your big boy panties on and take here to the looney house!

Lemons

The say when life throws you lemons make lemonade...  Yea okay you try it and tell me how that works out..  The other couple who was going on the Halloween cruise with us text me Friday they broke up there not going....  43 days until the cruise...  Now I feel bad about her situation because it is hard when any relationships.  But I am am also mad not at her but the situation..   I feel like I was blindsided.  I mean I knew there was trouble but I didn't know it was that bad..  Not that everyone should tell me everything but you had to have been thinking about this for a bit.. Now everyone know I am a planner...  If you want to do something and call me the day of more then likely I am busy because I plan things weeks out.  I do not like at all waiting until the last min to do things.. I still plan dates with Andrew and time with my family.  I think part of it is the OCD in me but it is not going to change..  With everything I have going on in life this was just one more thing I didn't need on my plate.. 

Andrew

I know everyone says they have the best boyfriend blah blah blah....  Well they are wrong I have the best boyfriend ever named andrew...  I can not wait to spend the rest of my life with this man..  I never thought that would happen to me I mean I was 25 (lil joke) for a LONG time and I had given up..  I know they say the right person will find you when you least expect it..  I was prepared to spend the rest of my life as a old lady with loads of dogs (not really a cat person)  He loves me for me..  Ever candle I blew out, every shooting star I wished with all my might that someone would love me for me...  Not because I my body, money or my own place..  Sounds crazy but all have happen to me.  The dating world was crazy! I really dont think I could do it again...  Now when I get prettyed up it because I love the way Andrew looks at me.  No matter what I wear do or say He thinks im beautiful no matter what..  I cant not wait until one day we are old people sitting on the porch hand in hand watching the grand children raise hell (my mom always told me I hope you have a kid just like you)  SO I am pretty much in trouble cause I was a totally bully.  Making my brother (more then once I might add)  eat mud pies and telling him it was chocolate..  Its so funny because andrew and I should have at least known about each other awhile ago..  We went to camp arrowhead together, we went to the b&g club at the same time, band together, and high school together.  He even took one of my friends to a dance yet we really didnt know about each other...  it took facebook (which I know so people say is the devil but I disagree because I trust this man with all my heart and soul.)  he post about how he never remembers to put sun screen on his ears and I post back about how I never remember to put it  on the part of my hair (only because I though this man is 3 shades of sexy)  he responded and we started chatting via text and havent stopped..  I love this man with ever fiber of my being...  I love him more then I love glitter and pink and for me thats ALOT

work comp

SO I always thought people used work comp as like a crutch..  Until I myself had to use it.  I had surgery on both hands for carpal tunnel and cubical tunnel in one of my elbows..  Even after all my surgeries my hand and such hurt every single day.  I found out that when you file a work comp claim you get a settlement for your injury (I never knew that)  the insurance company offered my a settlement and I had no clue of it was good or bad..  Well the judge who heard my case said I cant give you legal advise however I have never in all my years on the bench seen a settlement this low for the work you had done.  I cant tell you to get a lawyer but get  a lawyer.........  I am so at a lost on what to do do  call the lawyer or just demand more money myself... If I go thru the trouble of finding a lawyer I have to pay them 25%....   why cant I just know the right thing to do

time

I feel like as if late I have not been a good friend to those I love and care about the most.  I have so much going on in life that and I keep it inside.  I feel like I shouldn't bother people with my problems cause they have there own problems.  However I have found not only am I suffering but my beautiful friends are suffering.  These are some things that are weighing heavy on my mind..

I wanna have my boyfriends family over but then I think I live in the ghetto there have been 3 murders and 2 people have been stabbed..  I just make excuses up to myself on why I haven't invited them to dinner..

I wanna be a good friend but there never seems to be enough time in the day to give everyone the attention they need..  My friendships have suffered and I can only blame myself...  I try to be a good friend honestly but with working, volunteering and my family obligations I don't seem to have enough time to even give myself the attention I need...  take one look at my brows (which are kinda looking like giant caterpillars)  and you will see the amount of time I have to spend on myself..  I don't want to upset any friends but my stress level is like a 21 on a scale one to ten...  i just am at my wits end..

question

SO I think by 2012 that Andrew and I will be moving........    gotta find a place that takes TINK and such...  I wanna move out of the ghetto...  I mean 3 murders and 2 people getting stabbed ive had enough..

Doom Day

15 days until the bday I have been dreading my whole entire life...  people who know me and think its funny but really its so not funny at all... I looked at botox today because I don't wanna look older its sad and vain I know but I am just being honest..  All I can picture is tammy fay baker...  am I just so vain or going thru a midlife thing..im thinking I may have to be given like a shot or something

my street

I have always love living on my street....  My family and friends are close.  There is always someone to talk to and borrow the always needed cup of sugar..  However there are a few people in my neighborhood who I just wanna swarm a nasty bugs their direction.   One is an old busy body who can not keep her nose out of other peoples problems and then there is rat face who thinks the sun just rises and sets in her unemployed ass.  now worst of all busy body and rat face have made my mom feel bad..  I wanna defend my mom and totally lay the smack down..  Stupid home wreaking busy bodies need to be taught a lesson.  so how is the question needing to be answered